Fugitivus Discussion Forum

ooh, I like talking! I may not be fully coherent at times, but so be it.

We now have an Open Thread, for, umm, not shutting up. Please enjoy!

All the damn time. I haven't even posted an intro here because I start to write and then think "oh, that makes you look bad" or "oh, you sound like an idiot there" or "I CAN'T HANDLE THE POSSIBILITY OF NEGATIVITY ABOUT THAT." Or similar. The worst part is that I rationally know (from other feminist boards) that nothing I have to say is invalid.

For me, it always pops up when I'm depressed. It's kind of funny, because I just want to write up a thousand posts and get everything out in a safe environment, but that damn self-censorship just prevents me from making minor edits and clicking "submit." I wound up coming back here to finally post something because I'm hitting a really rough patch again and given that money is the biggest reason for stress, I'm not exactly able to run off to a therapist. And, well, given that I'm one of those people who can talk (or type, as the case may be) at length, read some responses, and cobble together some understandings about myself, I figure this is as close to therapy as I'm getting for awhile. Hey, it's better than nothing, right?

I'm glad to see you managed to post an intro. Congratulations on overcoming your self-silencing tendencies.

Reviving a dead-for-months thread to bring you penguins! Socially awkward ones!

That is a highly topical and also adorable penguin. Thanks, Smoovie!

Sigh. Love the socially awkward penguin. This is sort of off topic but, not, so, here goes. I had a really brief thing with someone recently who is really into a certain programming language whose image is a penguin. He uses a penguin on his business cards and as a signature on his emails. He suddenly stopped communicating with me, like turning off a switch. I want to contact him, but I am having the shutting up issue. I was just thinking about it, about emailing him then thinking better of it since the unspoken rejection already hurts plenty. Then I opened this thread and saw the socially awkward penguin saying...don't contact him! He doesn't want to hear from you, obviously.

Sigh.

Aw, MomTFH.

*box o'hugs*

Thanks, LH, hugs are definitely needed.

Aww, Mom, I'm so sorry. *Hugs* if you'd like them.

Obviously, you know your silent penguin much better than we do, but I sometimes go suddenly radio silent when I get swamped with stuff, even with people I like very much. And you are awfully awesome, so even if he did stop communicating for reasons of toolishness rather than busy-ness, it's a reflection on him, not you. But I hope you can e-mail him a note, and I hope he responds to say he's really swamped but he thinks you rock and he'll be back online soon *crosses fingers optimistically*